Wow, these last few weeks have been CRAZY!
As you may have noticed, I haven’t been around much lately. Sometimes life hands you things that need your full attention, and that is exactly what happened to me.
A dear loved one of mine got quite a scare, so I spent some time traveling and helping them through a surgery. On top of that, I had my final test for my job as a linguist, and it turns out that I’ll be spending another 8 weeks studying. All of this got me thinking about my future, and where I see myself going. I’m not sure my current job is what I love and want to do. More on that coming up…
I did spend a little time crocheting though. I started making some shawls and a couple amigurumi dolls. I also signed up for a craft show! That’s coming up in a few weeks, so I’ll be a busy bee making all sorts of things to sell. I’ll definitely keep you all posted on that!
Now, I’m working on a couple commission pieces, and getting ready for the craft show, all while trying to study this language and pass my final test.
That being said, after taking that test, I realized that although I love learning languages, and even though there is huge potential to make money with it, it just isn’t where my heart is. I always have creating in the back of my mind. I’m always thinking about crocheting, using resin, trying new crafts out, and staying at home with my children.
A lot of people don’t think that’s possible, or even honorable. I have the ability to do something great with this language, but is it worth my being miserable? Do I want to spend the rest of my life wondering what my life COULD have been like, had I done what I loved?
No, I don’t think so.
It’s hard. It’s really hard and really scary, thinking about quitting your job that gives you stability, to do something else; something that many people have tried before, and failed. And although I have bigger ideas, those ideas take investment, and there is just no guarantee that it will even work.
I guess what I need is just one person to say I can do it. I’ve been praying about it. I’ve been asking people about it. In the end, my heart is telling me to do what I love, and not to look back. It’s going to take commitment, and it’s going to take motivation. I’ll need emotional support, and drive. I truly believe that if someone really loves something, they should find a way to make a living off of doing that. Right now, the things I love are crafts and my family. I need to find a way to make it work.
For now though, I’m focusing on rocking this craft show and passing this test. Maybe when those two things are over, I’ll have an easier time figuring out my future.
